the struggle

Life, like climbing, is a continuous struggle. I went through some of the darkest times of my life in 2008. The biggest defeat of the whole ordeal was the loss of my climbing life and the relationships that were built upon that lifestyle.
In January 2008, I was physically and mentally in a place that I had never been before. I sent a lot of my projects that winter and it felt really, really good. I could feel myself and my climbing moving in a direction that I would have never thought possible. Then, suddenly, I made a costly mistake and the consequences of that decision have had lasting effects on me. I paid the price for my actions, in more ways than one.
Last week, however, I got my license back and my probation ended. The whole time I assumed that when that time came, my life would magically center itself again; things would return to normal and I would again be the person I was before I made that mistake. So far, it hasn’t.
But I do know that everything happens for a reason. Our pasts are intended to both cloud and shape our futures at the same time. During that time, I left climbing, but climbing didn’t leave me. It remained a part of my life in the memories I have, the friendships established, and the many pictures that hang in my small apartment. For almost 6 years now, climbing has been the light that has illuminated my path through life, and I owe it to climbing to try as hard as I can to find that lifestyle again. I’m well on my way, but it is a continuous struggle. The work is hard, the rest is little, and the sacrifices are many. Through it all, one thing I learned is that true happiness comes from the pursuit of our goals, not just the attainment.

Someone once told me to Ride the waves, knowing that you’ll have to swim through some; sail through others. (thanks brook.)

See you soon.



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